Notes To My Dearest Nara

Hi Noot, 

This is my second time to read your letter and i still crying. First time when Mom gave it to me and the second time when I re-write it into my blog. i realized that I still need to learn every day to become a best father for you. But trust me, what ever I do, I do it for you. 

I want you to fly higher than me. Your success is yours, but your failed is mine. I can not say much word than you, but i just want to say that you are the greatest give for me. You teach me as a parent, a man or even as a friend. I know I am not a good listener, but i am trying always be there for you every time when you need me. I will always be your safety net. 

Mom is rite. When the time is come and you are leaving to your dream in UK or Europe, I will cry all day. It's not because of I am sad, but because I am very happy and will be so proud. I will let  my tears fell down and I will not shame to show it to the world. Yes, I am a man, but I also a Dad who fell flowery to let you go to achieve your dream. Do not worry. I will be fine. Do not look back. Just come back whenever you want. 

Every morning when i wake you up, i was pensive. I am a lucky Dad to have you. I look on your face and i still can not realize that you grew up. But in my mind, you are still my little baby. That's why i always want to huge you because you are (still) my baby. Always be 😍

Thank you very much form being a good daughter, good kid, good friend and good sister for Gits.  I can not ask for more form you. You are so kind, helpful and care with your family especially your little daughter. You are a good role model for her, and I am so proud of that. 

Fly higher my baby, fly higher! We will give you the best wings that we can provide. We will always be at home, be a home for you to come whenever you want. 

I love you so much.

-Dad-  

Surat Balasan Nara Untuk Ibu Dan Aji

Hello mom. I don't even know where to begin. So obviously, i pathetically cried from your letter. First of, I'd like to say my biggest apology especially when i had compared you multiple times with Mbak Sum. Going straight to the point, you are the best mom. You and Dad are the best. I could wish for better, but no amount of divine powers will be able to grant it because you both are perfect. Every time we talk, i am always grateful. I have 2 parents who loves me endlessly and never have judged me for who i want to be. Many others do not have that kind of privileged. I am more than lucky, I am blessed. Sometimes I'm afraid that you and Dad will judge and disregard my thinking and opinion, but you never do. And you've reassured me thousands of times. I never wanted to be a burden to you. I'm trying, i really am. Occasionally, i feel like I'm failing you and Dad. Whether it's cuz of my lack if motivation, grades, skills, morality, even appearance. Genuinely, I'm trying the best I can for them all. Because you both are the best parents, you've been supporting me and are always there for me. Failing the both of you, is my biggest nightmare. 

Mom, you've always been with me through all kinds of hardships. You are my best friend. The only best. Everyday after school, I'm always waiting for you. It dreads me every time you can't pick me up because that'll mean that I'll have no one to tell my day to. You've always listen to me, care for me, and protect me. And it hurts me every time you say that you're not a good enough mother for me. So, I'd to write this in concrete word. You are the best Mom. I love you 💖     

Dad, you are always a resilient man. You've climbed the mountain and swam the horizon to provide the best for me. I've always happy that you're here for me, ready to catch me if i fall. Sometimes i feel that I'm not good enough for you. And i wanna say that I'll be better. I'm trying and I'll reach up for you. Passing your expectation and ideals, sometimes i want to cry just from how nice you are. I'm more than grateful yo have you as my Dad. Just like Mom, i couldn't have better. I will keep trying my best because i know you're doing the best for me. You are the best Dad. I love you 💗

-Nara-